As I sat staring at the sky with a troubled heart, the Word spoke to me saying, “Why are you so perplexed? There are those who work for Me, and there are those whom worship Me; you chose what you want to do.”
Without much thought to His statement, I knew instantly how fired up I can get to start something, but after a while, my strength vaporizes; I am not that young anymore, and my health is finally getting better. Compassion fatigue is one of my major problems and it can really burn anyone out. The loss of loved ones, my health, work, school, etc. To be totally honest with myself, everything I had had been sucked out emotionally, physically and spiritually. No matter how hard I tried to revive what was lost, I could regain on my own. I felt forgotten by the Lord (Isaiah 49).
There are so many questions in my heart I can’t answer, and will not talk to just anyone about; this just brings more confusion. I know that so many of my brothers and sisters all over the world are going through some really hard times as well. I can’t answer the “Why’s (Proverbs 3). What I now know for sure is that I had neglected my relationship with the Source of all my springs, and that is my relationship with my first love, Jesus Christ (Rev. 2:1-4). Spending time listening to His still small tender voice, and trusting Him in every detail of the Day is an act of worship; I worried and worked to the point of discouragement and despair. These are just a few things I have been feeling for some time.
I responded, “Lord, I would rather worship You, because when I worship You, You work through me. Thank You for answering the questions in my heart.”
Isaiah 40:27 “Why do you say, O Jacob, and compain, O Israel, “my way is hidden from the Lord, my cause is disregarded by my God?”
28Do you not know? Have you not heard? The Lord is the everlasting God, the Creator of the ends of the earth. He will not grow tired or weary, and His understanding no one can fathom. 29He gives strength to the weary and increases the power of the weak. 30Even youths grow tired and weary, and young men stumble and fall; 31but those who hope in the Lord will renew their strength. They will soar on wings like eagles; they will run and not grow weary, they will walk and not be faint.
Prayer: Lord, Your Word is true, and Your Love is faithful even when I have been unfaithful to You. Thank You for not leaving me with a darkened heart; You have given me a new song. May Your Song rise in my heart as I worship You my God, my Savior, my King, amen